Hey this is my first post. I m not writing because my writing is impressive or something, but writing it because i m feeling like writing . :-)
Since this is my first post i would like to write about the most important person in my life, My Father, My Dad , My Pappa that is what i call him. For others he has passed away 11 years back but for me he is still with me, yes he is still there neither in the photo frame which we got at my home when he passed away, nor in the photograph which i have in my wallet , but he is there watching me, smiling whenever i do some thing good, upset whenever i m wrong.
My Pappa, my best friend, when I was small I hardly used to talk to anyone, I hardly had any friends, perhaps because I never needed anyone. I had all that what was needed, my Dad. :-) It was funny, people used to call me his tail, wherever he used to go, i used to run behind him :D To tell about him I don't know from where to start. He was the best father, the best man in my life. He was happy-go-lucky, always smiling, who loved each and every person in his life and most importantly without expecting anything in return :-)
Sometimes my friends complain when their Dad put restrictions on them, I just smile, because I don't have any words to tell them that they r complaining about something for which many more are dying for. I don't know how to explain them that isnt it nice to deeply being cared by someone, isn't it nice to have someone who is shouting(beacause he is worried and he cant show it :P ) at you when you return late at home, someone who picks u up from your classes/office when it runs heavily, when its flooded, or when its too late, someone who acts like a detective to know to whom his gul is talking on phone for hours just to make sure that she is not involved with a wrong guy or to make sure that his angel is in safe hands, ;-) some1 who is proud after your good deeds, who asks u what u want after every success, who proudly says yes she is my daughter :-) , who shouts at you or punishes you to make you more understanding,more human and to make you a better person.
Its not that we all dont know all these things. We know, but its human nature that we understand value of everything only when we lose it or when we dont have it at all. I feel sad when I see many boys and girls dumping their parents into Old-age home. :-(
One of my friend told me about "Law of conservation of emotions". According to it, every person has limited amount of love, care and emotions. When we are kids , all we have in our life is our parents, that is the time when we shower all our love,emotions on our parents, as we grow up we make friends, As we have only limited amount of love which we can give to others we take away a part of love that we have for our parents and give it to our friends , as we grow up even more we make our own family, find a life partner, make children, and again we keep on taking away love from parents to the new people that are becoming part of our life"
Somehow this is true. But is it necessary to make the love that we have for our parents = zero?
I did not write this blog to praise my dad or to show how much I miss or love him. I just cant put all my love for him into words. I just wanted that whoever reads this blog understands the value of what they have before they lose it. Whoever reads this makes a silent promise that whatever the circumstances are, they are not going to throw away their parents, a promise to give them as much as love, care and respect that they can, and what their parents truly deserve
:-)
A song that describes all what is currently in my mind:
"As I lost loved ones in my life,
who never knew how much I loved them,
Now i live with the regret,
that my true feelings for them never were revealed,
So I made promise to myself,
To say each day how much you mean to me,
and avoid that circumstances where there is no second chance,
to tell you how I feel"
:-)
